My name is Linda, one of women in the world who surface one sad love story to my life, here this is my own sad love story about my true life.
Here’s my share -my story.
That was just one afternoon when I come to an msn chat room, just time pass. I was not looking for a boyfriend, more so a cyber boyfriend. It was February 13. I started to chat on November so I was kinda getting bored of it. So I chat, chat, chat even without sense. Then one guy come to me for a private chat, he added me on his friends list. He is from Sri Lanka and I’m from Philippines. He is so nice, he’s different, I haven’t met a guy as cool as him even in real life. What I noticed was he’s always being careful when he wanna say something to me, like “can I tell u this? can I ask u? plz don’t get me wrong ok.”
So we became friends. To tell you the truth, I never had a close male friend in real life. I feel I want him to be my close friend, maybe because I don’t have younger brother. I feel I wanna take care of him (I’m less than a year older, 21), and I called him my ‘cuddly pillow’ because I wanna hug him and kiss his cheeks as if he’s my baby.
We got to know each other more as days pass by. We’ve find out we have something in common….uhmm…ok, we’re both like kids =) playing around. Our chats were always funny, we admit we even laugh for real in front of our PC. Almost all people here sees me as a serious girl, looks like that, but when I'm with my close friends, I am always silly and very naughty.
It was one night that he seemed to sense something in me. So he insisted that I told him. I had a very little hint that he liked me TOO, more than a friend. When I revealed, gosh, he’s so happy, like ”So Ur my GF?? Omg ur my gf!!.” I'm sooo happy too that day.
He got a picture of me, an old pic where I'm just 16. I told him I did not look like that anymore. (Now he got many pics of me.) He sent his picture too, I was expecting to see a young-bunny-like-dude as that’s how he acts. To my surprise he is soooo Charming, he has a heart-shaped face. I crumble when I look on his lips. Shaz (his name) is so Loveable.
We've talked much about almost everything in us, I do my best to be there every day, we were chatting for almost 5 hours. Everyday we felt our love grow, deeper and deeper. ’till the realization that we are two very different people. We’re far. I’m Christian, he’s Muslim, which has a very strict culture. He is destined to marry a girl whom his Mom wants him to marry. This time we cried, especially when we realized we coould not make it. This is so frustrating, because we wanna marry each other, we want each other so badly. Were so in love that were blinded. Our relationship’s so wonderful. I’ll regret it for life if we can't have each other for real.
He had made a promise for me, that he would visit me here in Philippines before he goes back to UK, or before he marries the 'unfortunate" girl of his arranged marriage, or... when he’s already married. I consider the last as being foul, for he will only be killing me by being in front of me when he is not free anymore.
The least thing we hold on is Our Love, that no matter what, we’ll remain in each others hearts till end.
This is my story. Have I not met My Love, my life will still be the plain and gray one.
Linda. :)
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